i traveled a great distance last night in the labyrinth of my mind. so much and so far that i am almost brave enough to say that most of my doors within my sanity are opening, and those that are not opening are unlocking, and those that are not yet unlocking are shifting and making their presence known. gray matter has turned into another meaningless term deemed by an evil matrix of power obsessed with blinding the masses, dedicated to crystalizing our third being. i'm drowning in reason and in emotion, both intertwining like a double helix, i feel stardust evolving in my bottomless ocean codes and riddles now seem like fiction in children's stories. i'm ready to let the universe manipulate my heart beat and genetic makeup.
Last night i witnessed rebirth in the form of mother earth
we sang to her in unison the traditional song
when i heard harmony, felt love, saw fear and pain travel far far away
saw the colors in everyone's breath.
gaia was so beautiful in her hair of rope and branches long enough to save
the people from the depths of hell
her skin glistened with the faintest tan and her almond eyes hummed the songs
of the canaries
men and women gathered to celebrate her birthday and riotously demanded she raise her right arm for some peculiar reason
when suddenly she faintly rejected
instead with the demeanor that would cast zeus away in shame,
she proudly raised her left arm
a feeling of repose was then bestowed upon all
restoration of femininity rather than the expected masculinity
restoration of creativity rather than reason and mental recognition of patterns that don't even exist
intuition
shortly after the celebration, after the cutting of the cake, and the sincere adieus
i looked up at the sky and marveled at the beauty of space being filled with milk and white soot
if i so much as held up my hand i could have seized venus to tie her to my land
if i so much as released air from my lungs jupiter in all his greatness would have been blown away into oblivion
not but a second after i received a message from the love of my life, telling me to pull the strings for him
without a moment's hesitation i pulled the string that hung above and witnessed the planets align perfectly
just exquisitely
later that night i slept with him in our bed and dreamt once again
earth this time took the form we know from our maps and geography text books
but this time she had an eye of her own
it did not blink it did not weep just expanded and pulsed and expanded and pulsed
clamor of silence crashing of a roar!
i awoke from my dream and understood that he created me that this was actuality
him sleeping beside me with god's heavenly bodies in our reach and gaia enveloping our two bodies
when i awoke from that dream my heartbeat was beating as fast as the pounding of the giant mass;earth
it has not returned to its steady rhythm ever since.
goodnight and dream peacefully.
